Sunday, June 30
Aretha Franklin - Think
You better think (think) think about what you're trying to do to me
Think (think, think), let your mind go, let yourself be free
Let's go back, let's go back, let's go way on back when
I didn't even know you, you couldn't too much more than ten
I ain't no psychiatrist, I ain't no doctor with degrees
It don't take too much high IQ's to see what you're doing to me
You better think (think) think about what you're trying to do to me
Yeah, think (think, think) let your mind go, let yourself be free
Oh freedom (freedom), freedom (freedom), freedom, yeah freedom
Think about it, think about it
There ain't nothing you could ask I could answer you but I won't (I won't)
I was gonna change, but I'm not, to keep doing things I don't
You better think (think) think about what you're trying to do to me
Yeah, think (think, think), let your mind go, let yourself be free
People walking around everyday, playing games taking score
Trying to make other people lose their minds, ah, be careful you don't lose yours
You better think (think) think about what you're trying to do to me
Yeah, think (think, think), let your mind go, let yourself be free
You need me (need me) and I need you (don't you know)
Without each other there ain't nothing people can do
Think about it baby

Thursday, June 27
Hi baby, thanks, I'm fine... I know that one.

Wednesday, June 26
I wonder if I ever in my life can do what I really like. It is that I always or let's say most of the time do things I have to do.
It's not that I do them against my will, because it is my controlled will which let me do the things I do. According to the German philosopher Arthur Schopenhauer (1788-1860) we can do what we want but we cannot will what we want. To him human desire was futile because a free will as such couldn't be, because a will was something already determined and had a lack of freedom in itself.

Sunday, June 23
Your arrogance induces me to behave like a beaten dog hiding in a corner mirrowing an ugly self unable to comprehend your callousness. No doubt, the necessity to find the one, the other half that is supposed to complete my fragmented conscience never will arise again. Autonomy replaced the notion of a romantic love that even it was unrequited I have followed for a too long time.

During my lunch break I've been watching Do you love me? and Talking Head, two videos made by Michel Auder exhibited at Kunsthalle Basel, and taking a short stroll through Paulina Olowska's solo show Pavilionesque on the first floor.

Saturday, June 22
Morning. Preparing to go to work. I had a few beers yesterday, just to forget about those quarrels on our relationsship. I am tired of them. Are we together or not. What is the definition of being together? I don't know any more.
I should dissociate emotionally. That one I know. Sanneh balam kumbalin fing.

Friday, June 21
I heard she is his third one. That should be proved. By now its more like she is the second. And I will not change to make her the first.

Thursday, June 20
We are born to be competitive. It's not about who we are, but that we are better.

Wednesday, June 19
Birthday. People (everybody) ask me if I do something extraordinary today. Actually, I'ven't planned anything. Just doing my things.

Monday, June 17
Melancholic again. The warm temperature makes me fully relaxed. Bikinied lying on my bed listening to reggae internet radio from iphone pictures of life passing in front of my eyes and bequeath a sensation of an ephemerality that is inevitable.

Monday, June 10
I think of Swann in À la recherche du temps perdu de Marcel Proust.

My project Black Magic has been refused.

Saturday, June 8
The second diviner, Ayido, bases his etymology on similar ideas:
When one says vodun it is because in this life, there is a pool that is below, and one draws from it. One sees pools in the forests...if you go tho these places, you should relax and sit first before drawing the water and returning home with it. If you are in a hurry you will fall into the pool. That is why one says, "If one comes into this world it is at a pool that one arrives. One should rest first before drawing. If you are in too much of hurry, you will fall into the pool. That is what one means when one says vodun." (4.25.86)
The essence of vodun, the above suggests, lies in the need for one to be calm and composed. One must take the time sit quietly rather than rush through life.
Suzanne Preston Blier, African Vodun, Chigago Press 1995

Friday, June 7
Basel in ART frenzy.

Thursday, June 6
Provacation and challenge. Their quality is somehow the same. Provocation ranges between animal and animal, between one and the other. Challenge could happen from a person towards a condition what means challenging yourself.

Wednesday, June 5
When somebody dies I've known good that part lives on in me.

Monday, June 3
Michele Wallace at her Face to Facebook Art Talk last Monday:
"What do you think of artists who make expressive allusions to African cultures? Do you believe they are misguided, or trying to run away from themselves?"
I know there are a variety of thoughts about this. I just believe--if it matters at all, which I don't believe it does--that artists should be able to do whatever they want for whatever reasons they want. I don't think that critics or intellectuals should dictate terms to artists. Being the daughter of an artist, I was raised to believe such. That artists must be free to do as their conscience dictates. They run ahead of the pack. How can I see where they are going before they get there? I learned this especially from my love of literature, which is full of so many amazing miracles.

Sunday, June 2
Washing Day.
Some of my female friends never would wash their lover's socks. That's how they talked to me. Their men just should be good in fucking (making love to say it gentler) and taking them out so they wouldn't appear menless within society. Okay, everybody's preferences for me and for you.